the Before And After Afterlife edition

​Nine FACTS, One LIE
Issue #30

1. I’ve been reading about Quantum Mechanics and various conceptions of both the current state and (possible) creation of the universe for years. Mainly because it’s fascinating. And also that I often don’t understand a lot of what I read, until I’ve read it from many different sources and in multiple voices, and the concepts start to accrete like rust on the surface of my brain, and even then it’s a struggle. Which the stubborn part of me mostly likes.

2. Strangely, sometimes I almost GLIMPSE it. It’s usually fleeting, and if I try to put it into words, it’s gone. But for a second something is there, a highly pleasurable sensation, which turns to a combination of hope and frustration as the bonds between the molecules of comprehension once again fall away.

3. I’ve come to believe we are probably not evolutionarily equipped to understand the universe, or the math, or the dimensions we have grafted upon it to provide temporary structure/emotional shelter. It’s just not how our brains were meant to function. What we can’t understand is that maybe we aren’t supposed to understand. If we were capable of grasping the inter-dimensionality of time and space, for instance, maybe we wouldn’t be able to exist in the presumptive linear narrative and three dimensions in which we do. Not-understanding may actually be a matter of survival. Knowing could either drive us mad, or perhaps just pull the string of perceptual cohesion we rely upon, and unknot reality.

4. A quick way to come to terms with the pointlessness of contemporary politics, relationship woes, traffic lane fury, greed, bitcoin, ambition, accrual of objects, Nick Fuentes, the emptiness of theological creationism, the fraction of space and the blink of time we occupy, is to start reading about just the distance from the Milky Way to the next closest galaxy (Andromeda - and after that the much loved Canis Major Dwarf Galaxy). In that smallest of relative steps alone lies infinity. There are untold trillions of steps beyond that first step. In those unknowable trillions lies the brute, rote nothing of oppressive incomprehension.

5. Here’s a few things I’ve come to believe through study which would take forever to explain, so I will just state them. They can easily be looked further into. None of them are based in a subjective belief system to the degree that believing them benefits me personally in any way. They’re not conspiratorial or fantabulist or wishful or theological. In the end, they simply seem the most logical and plausible with the caveat that they are just as likely to be as wrong as all the deeply wrong things that we as animals accept as truths to make living for somewhere less than ten decades in a 13.8 billion-year-old universe emotionally manageable.

6. We are made of light. There is absolutely nothing solid in the universe. No one has ever actually touched anything. On the most micro level, electrons repel. Your neurons read sex as physical contact, but it’s the repelling force as the electrons near one another that feed the sensation to your brain. And 94% of the universe is made of nothing, at least to the extent that if you added up all the debris and stars and meteors and galaxies and black holes and nebulae and comets and cosmonauts frozen in forever orbits, and compressed them into a ball, it would be a mere 6% of nothing. We are actually made of quanta (groupings) of light. It’s possible that the universe is in fact a light projection with what we consider to be the past a Singularity, and the future an Event Horizon, which is really like a screen upon which consciousness is projected, and everything we imagine we are is a holograph. Which is not at all the same thing as Elon Musk’s Simulation Theory, which, much like Elon Musk, can only be proven by being unplugged.

7. Observation is what gives everything, from a molecule to a soaring vulture, reality. It is proven that the act of observation changes molecules, and even lends them mass. Casablanca still exists if you are not watching Casablanca, but if it is not being watched, Casablanca is either potential or memory. Our species, all carbon lifeforms, our combined observation of each other and everything around us, is what we take to be consciousness. There is nothing individual. We are symbiotic. We are one cohesive flesh potentiality. We are temporary, but we are also the exact same atoms that existed 13.8 billion years ago. We are in a constant flux of re-cohesion that gives us the illusion of narrative.

8. The universe is simultaneous. Past and future are a light cone pinched at the center that is not alterable, only observable. We are moving observers (our solar system is flying through space at 450,000 mph) which means that being still is an illusion and mapping set coordinates is false, if comforting, information. Our movement/directionality is dependent on our combined observation. Since time is static, and light is atomic cohesion giving the illusion of substance, gravity must be a dimensional force that bends both space and time.

9. Which means gravity created the universe. It did so because the universe is Light Potentiality, and gravity is the constant. Gravity is a law that allows for spontaneousness, for instance the perception of physics. Gravity is very likely a deity, although without all the holidays and golden crowns and velvet trappings. We are fundamental particles, the behavior of which is determined by one fundamental law, that the positivity of mass and negativity of gravitation cancel one another out, Which is another way of saying the vacuum and the potential, or the quantum fluctuation and the nothingness, or the male and the female, or the yin and yang, or the dark and the light.

10. Humans are both brilliant and unforgivably stupid because we all have set and contained groupings of information based on the entirety of our observances in any given second in which consciousness is possible. Basically, we all get 32 chess pieces on a board with 64 squares that comprise the evolutionary capability of comprehension in totality. Some people are better at pattern recognition and spatial awareness than others, but all intelligence and stupidity is interdependent. It is entirely possible that a profound appreciation of the pretty carved horse is a better usage of our incredibly brief existence than a brilliant strategic attack.

11. I am adding to this set of assertions, mainly culled from the writings of others and then grown like a mushroom from a moose patty in the quietly swaying forest of my brain over the years, that part of light/energy that we are comprised of is vibration. Our light CRACKLES. And a big part of that vibration is the freedom we have to order and re-order it. Which is why virtually everyone on the planet is obsessed with everything from rudimentary percussion to complex composition of music. Vibration is life! Music is sustenance. I personally believe music is pre-lingual. We learned to speak by playing snare drums to, and often at, one another. We twanged brontosaurus tendon in Db at our Fire Bois and Cave Grrls to woo them from the very first. Love is a harmonic communion, a melodic unison, a shared vibration.
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12. Descartes was wrong, or to be fair to the man, Cogito Ergo Sum is widely misunderstood. The phrase should be, “I vibrate, therefore you are.”